Why I came to this decision....

My weight has been an issue my enitre life.  I have always been the girl on the chunky side, the one described as big boned, or just carrying around my baby wieght.  While I'm 29 now, so I'm sure if I was going to lose it I would have lost my baby pudge by now!

I'm not going to whine and moan here, I will simply state this, I have had some really bad dark depression filled days because I was not happy with my body, how I looked and how the extra weight made me feel.

I feel that my weight has held me back.  I want to be the go getter full of life, try anything once kind of girl but my size and physical limits because of my extra has kept me from doing that.

To sum it all up I want to really start to live my life.  Not have any excuse or any reason to hold me back.

I look to the surgery as a tool, not a magic pill or an easy fix, because goodness knows it may be a struggle at times, and I may very well still have dark days on my journey. That's why I've started this blog, to hopfully help some one else, like so many WLS blogs and videos have been able to help me.

Other news, I go for step 3 in my pre-op steps, my ECG and CBC blood work today.  The needle and blood giving doesn't bother me half as much as taking off my shirt to have the ECG leads attached to my chest!!  C'est La Vie.

Well that's about it for today.  If you ever have any questions for me, please feel free to comment below and I will respond.

Coming soon, before pics and measurements.......duh dah duhhhhh........lol

Later days.

So it begins......

Today is the very begining of what I consider to be a very if not, the most important journey in my life.  I have recently made the decision to undergo a bariactric proceedure called Verticle Sleeve Gastrectomy (VSG), also know as the Gastric Sleeve.  Sometime in the near future I will be traveling to Mexico and undergoing this procedure.  I chose to go to Mexico because where I reside in Alberta, Canada the waiting period for this surgery is anywhere from 3 to 5 years!!  This is because our public health care system will pay with public funds for the surgery and unfortunetly there are not any 'private' hospitals or surgeons here yet in Alberta from which you can 'purchase' the sleeve.  I could have elected to go to Montreal for the surgery but the cost is nearly $ 20,000.00 and still a year to wait.  So this is my choice to go to Mexico.  I have started my journey by working with a great company http://www.weightlossforever.ca/ .  They have been super friendly and informative and quick to respond to any questions I may have had. 
This afternoon I will be going to my Dr.'s office to get a requisition for my inital ECG and bloodwork that needs to be done before the surgery can occur.

To be honest I am a little nervous, I have mild to moderate anxiety level when it comes to attending at a doctor's office.  I don't know where it comes from as I have never in my life really even been sick.  I've never had a hopsital stay or any traumatizing event that would cause me to have this fear.  And deep down inside I know everything will be alright.

That's it for now.  I will keep you posted!